Uhm...this is a snippet from the backstory I mentioned to turps33. In this one Pony is 14.
------ “I'm never going to love anyone again” he says looking D into the eyes.
“Listen...” D begins.
“No, you listen. I'm not. From this point on I will never ever fall for anyone. Never.”
“You can't decide that.”
“I can. I can stay away. I can not get attached: I can leave out the feelings because it hurts too fucking much when they leave you.”
D looks sad for a moment. Pony isn't sure if it's for Pony or for himself. He and D aren't talking about their pasts. It's not like they can do anything about it anyway. It's the fucking past. What counts is what they lived trough. What they survived. Pony was raised to be a fighter, but he was also raised to be a survivor. That's his way of surviving.
Doctor D nods once sharply as if he understands. “Okay.”
“It doesn't mean...” he takes a deep breath and doesn't look at D when he continues, “I can't unlove. You know?”
“I know.”
Pony nods. Once, sharply. He never told D that he loves him like the father he doesn't remember, but he is sure D knows anyway.
Re: this is a gift, it comes with a price; Killjoys: Dr. Death Defying+Show Pony
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“I'm never going to love anyone again” he says looking D into the eyes.
“Listen...” D begins.
“No, you listen. I'm not. From this point on I will never ever fall for anyone. Never.”
“You can't decide that.”
“I can. I can stay away. I can not get attached: I can leave out the feelings because it hurts too fucking much when they leave you.”
D looks sad for a moment. Pony isn't sure if it's for Pony or for himself. He and D aren't talking about their pasts. It's not like they can do anything about it anyway. It's the fucking past. What counts is what they lived trough. What they survived. Pony was raised to be a fighter, but he was also raised to be a survivor. That's his way of surviving.
Doctor D nods once sharply as if he understands. “Okay.”
“It doesn't mean...” he takes a deep breath and doesn't look at D when he continues, “I can't unlove. You know?”
“I know.”
Pony nods. Once, sharply. He never told D that he loves him like the father he doesn't remember, but he is sure D knows anyway.