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turpsMy Camp Sparkle visit was a fantastic success, the only thing that could have made it better was if we could have stayed longer. Meeting up with everyone felt like coming home, and my hug quota has been filled for a little while.
I got to hang and talk with lots of fabulous people, sat and watched Dead 7 -- which was just as terribly awful/amazing as I expected -- drank out of a Chris mug, ate good food and on Tuesday go to Chester for the day, where I spent most of it hanging withsperrywink and for the first time got 10k steps on my fitbit \o/
James also fit in nicely. Enough so I left him watching another movie while I went to bed, and then when he woke the next day he found he'd gone to sleep with a pixi stix in his mouth. Then last night, I was about to go to sleep when James told me that guy I liked was on an episode of Tanked, so I woke myself up enough to half watch Nick and his wife get a new fishtank installed in his house. Which was very nice, and I enjoyed hearing Nick talk about sharks and how water calmed him, and of course enjoyed looking at his wife and imagining her as a warrior priestess.
I also got to see
Which was like meeting another DW friend.
The journey home was a bit of a nightmare for the first half as the rain was torrential at times, but we took it slow, stopped often, and made it home in the end.
So yes, Camp Sparkle was fabulous, even if very short.
The Monday we went away was a bit busy as I had my psych appointment, and after that we phoned Corey to ask if he was on his way home from Download, and he said he was, and was nearly back in Newcastle and could we bring him home. So instead of heading straight to Wales we picked the kidlet up, which was good as he was exhausted, and had a mild version of trench foot due to standing in very deep water nearly all weekend. The whole festival was a washout for him and his group of friends. He had to buy a new tent after his first one flooded, had to buy wellies and waterproofs and still he was soaked through after it rained heavily throughout the weekend. He said lots of people went home, and no wonder when the sites looked like
My psych visit went well too.
He's given me the go-ahead for the op and reassured that I can go ahead when I feel ready and comfortable, even if that means delaying any first dates. He also said I should talk about my situation/weight issues with other people after the op because it's obvious how much I've researched and thought about my situation and have also lived with and experienced being seen as 'abnormal' due to excess weight. We actually had a lengthy and good talk about that as I was saying how I'd like to be seen as 'normal' in a physical way, and he said that I was normal and I agreed that yeah, I was but so many other people don't see it that way. You're always reminded of that when idiots think it's okay to yell mean things at you when they walk past or drive by in a car, or take your photo, sometimes on the sly, often very deliberately. All of which are things that have happened to me in the past.
I want to be someone that blends into the crowd, and I'm getting there. Like at Chester, I did all that walking and yeah, I was the slowest of all the group, but I did it. I was hot and sweaty, especially as it was thundering and close, but I got those 10k plus steps and didn't feel like collapsing at the end. And like I said, that's great and I'm proud of myself, but I want more.
So I'm discharged from psych services for now with the understanding that I can ask to talk to him again afterwards if I need help with my new eating, but he said he didn't think that would happen. So now it's a case of waiting again, and boggling that he thought I was someone that could help others by talking, because really, has he met me?
To end, the latest GoT ep wasn't the best I've seen but one part did make me want to fist pump and go YES! And no, it wasn't anything to do with cock.
I got to hang and talk with lots of fabulous people, sat and watched Dead 7 -- which was just as terribly awful/amazing as I expected -- drank out of a Chris mug, ate good food and on Tuesday go to Chester for the day, where I spent most of it hanging with
sperrywink and for the first time got 10k steps on my fitbit \o/James also fit in nicely. Enough so I left him watching another movie while I went to bed, and then when he woke the next day he found he'd gone to sleep with a pixi stix in his mouth. Then last night, I was about to go to sleep when James told me that guy I liked was on an episode of Tanked, so I woke myself up enough to half watch Nick and his wife get a new fishtank installed in his house. Which was very nice, and I enjoyed hearing Nick talk about sharks and how water calmed him, and of course enjoyed looking at his wife and imagining her as a warrior priestess.
I also got to see
Which was like meeting another DW friend.
The journey home was a bit of a nightmare for the first half as the rain was torrential at times, but we took it slow, stopped often, and made it home in the end.
So yes, Camp Sparkle was fabulous, even if very short.
The Monday we went away was a bit busy as I had my psych appointment, and after that we phoned Corey to ask if he was on his way home from Download, and he said he was, and was nearly back in Newcastle and could we bring him home. So instead of heading straight to Wales we picked the kidlet up, which was good as he was exhausted, and had a mild version of trench foot due to standing in very deep water nearly all weekend. The whole festival was a washout for him and his group of friends. He had to buy a new tent after his first one flooded, had to buy wellies and waterproofs and still he was soaked through after it rained heavily throughout the weekend. He said lots of people went home, and no wonder when the sites looked like
My psych visit went well too.
He's given me the go-ahead for the op and reassured that I can go ahead when I feel ready and comfortable, even if that means delaying any first dates. He also said I should talk about my situation/weight issues with other people after the op because it's obvious how much I've researched and thought about my situation and have also lived with and experienced being seen as 'abnormal' due to excess weight. We actually had a lengthy and good talk about that as I was saying how I'd like to be seen as 'normal' in a physical way, and he said that I was normal and I agreed that yeah, I was but so many other people don't see it that way. You're always reminded of that when idiots think it's okay to yell mean things at you when they walk past or drive by in a car, or take your photo, sometimes on the sly, often very deliberately. All of which are things that have happened to me in the past.
I want to be someone that blends into the crowd, and I'm getting there. Like at Chester, I did all that walking and yeah, I was the slowest of all the group, but I did it. I was hot and sweaty, especially as it was thundering and close, but I got those 10k plus steps and didn't feel like collapsing at the end. And like I said, that's great and I'm proud of myself, but I want more.
So I'm discharged from psych services for now with the understanding that I can ask to talk to him again afterwards if I need help with my new eating, but he said he didn't think that would happen. So now it's a case of waiting again, and boggling that he thought I was someone that could help others by talking, because really, has he met me?
To end, the latest GoT ep wasn't the best I've seen but one part did make me want to fist pump and go YES! And no, it wasn't anything to do with cock.
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Date: 2016-06-16 01:49 pm (UTC):-)
So yes, great time hanging out with you, and I am glad we were mostly on the same speed for walking. Made me feel like we fit as always. Ahahaha. And of course James fit in. He's a doll, and always up for lively conversation (unless we are talking fandom,and then he just naps, hee!).
Glad you got approved for the op. Good luck with the next hoops. ANd total yay on 10,000 steps, that is awesomesauce!! We rulez!!
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Date: 2016-06-16 02:03 pm (UTC)I enjoyed hanging out with you so much, getting to spend the day together was fantastic, even if it did involve many staircases of DOOM! And ha, James falling asleep like that makes me grin each time I think about it. Power napping in a cafe like that is impressive. But really, he should have stayed awake and fought his corner about the last ep of NCIS being awesome *g*
Thank you! And yes, we do because you would have easily got that too.
How are the last few days going? Wish I was still down there with you all. ♥
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Date: 2016-06-16 02:08 pm (UTC)Ahahaha, James and NCIS kills me too. He's so wrong on the Internet!!
The last couple of days have been good, but I have mostly been working, so I haven't been hanging out as much as I would like. And then in the evenings I just want to read more Glee fic. I'm totally in a rut there. Ahahaha. But dinner is always lively and fun, and even just knowing everyone is around having a good time is sweet.
This afternoon is Afternoon Tea, which I am greatly looking forward to, and so happy that I can make it considering I have training that starts at 6pm and goes to 10pm. Ugh.
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Date: 2016-06-19 06:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-06-18 12:15 pm (UTC)Poor Corey - I had some colleagues who were there, too, and it was SO wet, such a shame for them all.
Hurrah for a good psyc visit - you're doing so fabulously :D
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Date: 2016-06-27 02:42 pm (UTC)Corey was looking forward to Download so much, and while he did still enjoy the weekend, the wet and mud did put a huge damper on things.
Thank you :D
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Date: 2016-06-19 06:38 pm (UTC)Hi Bernhard!
Poor Corey. I hope his feet are better now.
I'm so glad to hear the psych visit went well.
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Date: 2016-06-27 03:03 pm (UTC)Bernhard gets everywhere!
Corey's feet are fine now, though did take a while.
Thank you.
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Date: 2016-06-20 09:29 pm (UTC)Congrats on breaking 10k! *\o/*
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Date: 2016-06-21 03:49 pm (UTC)I was so thrilled to feel the band vibrate. Sadly it hasn't happened again since.
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Date: 2016-06-21 04:37 pm (UTC)Yikes at what Corey and other people had to endure at the Download festival! It sucks that so much of it was fail-y. I was reminded of that period of time in the early 1990s when Lollapalooza was a travelling festival. Looking back, I can't believe I totes dealt with all that entailed attending an all-day festival 'cause I'd totes NOPE out of it nowadays. LOL!
Yays at getting approved for the op (and good luck with the next stage of the process.)
I've got a lot of GoT feels that I want to write about before this weekend's finale. Overall, this season is WAY BETTER than the last two. :)
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Date: 2016-08-09 04:04 pm (UTC)Yikes at what Corey and other people had to endure at the Download festival! It sucks that so much of it was fail-y. I was reminded of that period of time in the early 1990s when Lollapalooza was a travelling festival. Looking back, I can't believe I totes dealt with all that entailed attending an all-day festival 'cause I'd totes NOPE out of it nowadays. LOL!
Yeah, I'd nope too. Looking at that photo i can hardly believe he put up with those conditions for so long. I'd have given up and just gone home asap.