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Sep. 3rd, 2018 02:58 pmBefore I get onto the personal stuff, I got an invite to Pillowfort from Sperrywink, and now have an account there. I'm still finding my way around, but if you have an account and want to follow, I'm Turps there, too.
We didn't end up scattering mam's ashes yesterday. On Saturday I was talking to Kayleigh and she said how she was feeling chewed up at the thought of scattering, and that she thought it would feel better to do it when it wasn't mam's birthday, so what should have been a happy occasion wasn't tainted with that final goodbye.
She still would have done it if me or Chris didn't agree, but I was happy to wait and so was Chris. I do think when it's the right time we'll know, and until then mam's safe at Kayleigh's house.
We still met up for fish and chips, though. We went to the beach and mam's favourite restaurant and had a bit of a natter, talked about mam, took photos and it was really nice. It had been a gorgeous day and was still sunny and warm while we were there. In fact, so sunny and warm it was probably best we weren't scattering as with the schools going back this week many families were around. I assume having one last late afternoon at the beach.
So while the day started sad -- I'd had a dream mam had phoned me the night before, so waking up and realising that was impossible wasn't a great start -- it got better. I got some photos. this one is of us all at the restaurant. And this one of me, Kayleigh and Chris. And while mam wasn't physically there, somehow, it felt like she was just out of sight.
We didn't end up scattering mam's ashes yesterday. On Saturday I was talking to Kayleigh and she said how she was feeling chewed up at the thought of scattering, and that she thought it would feel better to do it when it wasn't mam's birthday, so what should have been a happy occasion wasn't tainted with that final goodbye.
She still would have done it if me or Chris didn't agree, but I was happy to wait and so was Chris. I do think when it's the right time we'll know, and until then mam's safe at Kayleigh's house.
We still met up for fish and chips, though. We went to the beach and mam's favourite restaurant and had a bit of a natter, talked about mam, took photos and it was really nice. It had been a gorgeous day and was still sunny and warm while we were there. In fact, so sunny and warm it was probably best we weren't scattering as with the schools going back this week many families were around. I assume having one last late afternoon at the beach.
So while the day started sad -- I'd had a dream mam had phoned me the night before, so waking up and realising that was impossible wasn't a great start -- it got better. I got some photos. this one is of us all at the restaurant. And this one of me, Kayleigh and Chris. And while mam wasn't physically there, somehow, it felt like she was just out of sight.
