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turpsFor Nic who's bored *g*
Anyone that reads this be aware that it takes beta readers to make me look semi good, and this is just a spur of the moment ficlet thing *g*
I also have to say sorry for the sap ;)
Sometimes, Nick hates how he looks, especially when he stands next to Kevin, with his defined muscles or AJ with his wiry frame. It’s then Nick feels awkward and fat, and hunches over in baggy clothes that hide his slight belly and rounded curves.
Nick remembers when he was young and cute, the way people would scream his name and he was at the top of all the teen heart-throb lists. But that was before he grew – in every way. It isn’t that he eats badly or is some kind of couch potato. It’s just he doesn’t understand why it’s so important to work out everyday or agonise over every piece of food to pass his lips.
The publicists throw a fit, talking about demographics and image but Nick faces them down. He’s all grown now and if he wants to gain weight he will. It’s his choice and he sticks to it, even if the words ‘Porky Carter’ hurt when he reads them in the magazines that used to idolise him.
Nick doesn’t listen to the publicists or read the magazines. He eats what he wants when he wants, and Nick’s happy, he really is. It’s only when he sees pictures of himself next to the others, when he towers over Howie or looks twice as wide as AJ that Nick feels ill at ease and uncomfortable, and thinks maybe he should lose some weight.
At times like that he feels his happiness seeping away, and vows to throw all the junk food from his cupboards and jog at least a mile a day. It’s a vow Nick means at the time, but it’s a vow that he usually breaks.
Because when Nick’s naked in bed he knows he’s adored, belly, curves and all. When Chris’ hand is stroking across Nick’s stomach and gliding over the swell of his thighs, and he looks down and tells Nick how beautiful he is, Nick believes him. Because when Nick looks at Chris, at his soft belly and full face he sees exactly the same thing.
He might not be hard bodied and built, but that’s okay. Nick knows he’s loved, and in the end that’s all that matters.
Anyone that reads this be aware that it takes beta readers to make me look semi good, and this is just a spur of the moment ficlet thing *g*
I also have to say sorry for the sap ;)
Sometimes, Nick hates how he looks, especially when he stands next to Kevin, with his defined muscles or AJ with his wiry frame. It’s then Nick feels awkward and fat, and hunches over in baggy clothes that hide his slight belly and rounded curves.
Nick remembers when he was young and cute, the way people would scream his name and he was at the top of all the teen heart-throb lists. But that was before he grew – in every way. It isn’t that he eats badly or is some kind of couch potato. It’s just he doesn’t understand why it’s so important to work out everyday or agonise over every piece of food to pass his lips.
The publicists throw a fit, talking about demographics and image but Nick faces them down. He’s all grown now and if he wants to gain weight he will. It’s his choice and he sticks to it, even if the words ‘Porky Carter’ hurt when he reads them in the magazines that used to idolise him.
Nick doesn’t listen to the publicists or read the magazines. He eats what he wants when he wants, and Nick’s happy, he really is. It’s only when he sees pictures of himself next to the others, when he towers over Howie or looks twice as wide as AJ that Nick feels ill at ease and uncomfortable, and thinks maybe he should lose some weight.
At times like that he feels his happiness seeping away, and vows to throw all the junk food from his cupboards and jog at least a mile a day. It’s a vow Nick means at the time, but it’s a vow that he usually breaks.
Because when Nick’s naked in bed he knows he’s adored, belly, curves and all. When Chris’ hand is stroking across Nick’s stomach and gliding over the swell of his thighs, and he looks down and tells Nick how beautiful he is, Nick believes him. Because when Nick looks at Chris, at his soft belly and full face he sees exactly the same thing.
He might not be hard bodied and built, but that’s okay. Nick knows he’s loved, and in the end that’s all that matters.
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Date: 2003-12-28 12:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-28 12:56 pm (UTC)I totally agree with you. I love men with meat on them, and I'd welcome Nick and Chris to my home too ;)
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Date: 2003-12-28 12:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-28 12:58 pm (UTC)Thank you :)
I tend to prefer angst but sometimes sap's the only thing that will hit the spot *g*
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Date: 2003-12-28 01:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-28 03:58 pm (UTC)I can be hit and miss with spur of the moment ficlets, and it's so easy to over do sap, so I'm really glad that it worked.
And yes, Nick and Chris are hot doing anything!
Hope it entertained you for a a minute anyway *g*
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Date: 2003-12-28 01:21 pm (UTC)Love the boys. Both of them. No matter what.
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Date: 2003-12-28 03:59 pm (UTC)I'll take cute, because that's what they are, and devilish hot too of course ;)
Thanks for taking the time to comment!
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Date: 2003-12-28 02:31 pm (UTC)And! Trickynick! ::dies::
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Date: 2003-12-28 04:02 pm (UTC)Trickynick is becoming my one true cross-over, something that's been Kevin/Chris for a long time.
I blame that Nick, he takes over your brain :)
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Date: 2003-12-28 02:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-28 04:05 pm (UTC)This is a wonderful comment to receive, because I totally agree with you. As much as I adore men with the razor edged abs I know that the ones without them are just as beautiful.
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Date: 2003-12-29 02:14 am (UTC)http://www.drunkduck.com/gbcinc/?i=102711