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You know what I hate? People that phone constantly, putting it down and doing it again and again. Now that's the way I know it's my family phoning, because I detest talking on the phone so won't pick up otherwise. That's what the answering machine's for. But when I don't pick up the second time they should know I'm doing something, so stop bloody phoning!

I'm just out of sorts this morning. Last night I went outside and found something had got into the rabbits hutch and really did a number on her face. It had practically no fur left and just looked so bad. I bathed it the best I could and waited for James to come home and take her to the vets. He kept her in but wouldn't say if she'd be okay, which just isn't a good sign.

The problem is I'm now on this huge guilt trip that I should feel worse about it. I'd be upset if Misty died, but not as much if say it was Tex or Brock and I'm feeling bad about feeling that way. I'm such a callous bitch at times.

So yes. I'm feeling out of sorts and just blah today for no real reason. I was going to read something happy but my brother's girlfriend is coming to use the printer so I can't even do that, and I have to be sociable when all I want to do is pull a blanket over my head and sulk for a while.

Feh, I'm whining. Just ignore me :(

ETA: Just had a fantastic mail, so I'm feeling so much happier now. Cards from dine,seiyaharris and a parcel and card from babycakesin My first Christmas gift that I didn't order myself! Thank you!! Also got cards from my TS list, so that was wonderful :)

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I don't know if anyone else does this but when I'm out of sorts all I want to do is have a good cry and just get it out of my system. That's what I was like today, so I hit the deathfic. I started with 'My Soul to Keep' for TS. That story breaks me for so many reasons. I was blubbering like a baby at the end. Then I read nsync deathfic and just bawled again. It may be a cracked thing to do but I feel a hell of a lot better now.

It's good to know deathfic has it's uses *g*

ETA: Forgot to say. My mood wasn't helped today by reading one of my mailing lists. Lately they had a huge thread about feedback and as a result I'm having to wade through multiple posts saying 'loved it' for stories. Now, feedback is good but if it's two words keep it off the list!

ETA2: They had to put Misty down, and I know I said that I didn't feel that bad and I don't in comparison to other things that could have happened. But she was still my bunny and just thinking of how she was looking at me last night and seeing the bag of food in the kitchen is setting me off. Guess I should have waited, I wouldn't have needed the deathfic.

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Back again. But feeling a whole lot better. It's just been one of those days when I felt all blah but really I'm feeling 100% better now.

But I do want to have an evening of just sitting and reading. So I'm asking for recs. What's your favourite story? If you read what I write, and if you do are you insane? ;) -- you'll know what I'm into, but a quick reminder. My main fandoms are popslash, The Sentinel and Mutant X, but if anyone can point me to any new MX I'll write a Shal/Bren het fic *g* But if you have other fandoms include them too. The only squick I have is cross-dressing, after that go to town. I adore kink, darkfic, n/c, toys, fluff, humour anything really.

My favourite characters are Chris, Kevin, Brennan and Blair, but again I'll branch out if needed.

So anyone have recs? I want to just sit with a cup of coffee in my jammies and read tonight.