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I hate it when you're writing and suddenly realise that something you've done just doesn't work at all. You want it to, have had plans for it to work but it isn't going to and you need to delete the whole beginning and start again. Deleting 3 pages just isn't sitting well with me but it has to be done, because it just doesn't work right. I've been going through all my mails that people have sent, (I'm so grateful that people do point out the bad stuff) and reading through the story I can the beginning isn't working at all. It's not a disaster by any means, but I write so short that 3 pages out of 15 is enough to make me go eep! Stupid Joey and his issues.

But I'm going to get a cup of coffee and some left over Brewster birthday cake and fix the thing. That is if I don't get interrupted again. The plumbers are at mam's so they have to keep coming down here to use the toilet.

I'm actually happy taking time off to write because some of the things I'm reading on the flist are insane. But I will say, how gorgeous did JC look?

This isn't getting any writing done, have to be brave now and delete.

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Had a productive afternoon in a strange way.

Read Joey story, read mails from people helping with story, read story again. Realised the beginning just didn't work and would need deleting. Didn't like that idea so read flist while hoping story wouldn't suck so much when I read it again. Posted on LJ. Read story again, still sucked, deleted 3 pages and mourned for about a minute then sucked it up and got on with it.

But first had to download and lust after about 708468736 JC pics. Such a pretty boy.

Got an idea how to do the beginning and was excited, started writing and realised I needed to know exactly how the flip is done in IWYB so went to my nsync footage folder to look for the vid.

Looked for vid, cursed my lack of organisation skills yet again. Saw 'Gone' remembered how good Chris looks in black and white. Watched Gone. Looked again, saw TUMH, remembered the gay porn scene of Justin on the bed and Chris in his scary clothes, had to watch. Looked again, found IWYB euro version, had to watch to see scary cyber woman, tight porn t-shirts and hot Chris. Looked again and somehow the unedited xmas message came up, had to see that. Finally found the first live showing of IWYB at MTV I wanted and watched the flips ten a few times.

Went back to writing.

Needed to research braces and how much they hurt after. Googled "Braces after care"

Realised I was writing the story that I've always wanted in a lesser form, worried about that, thought so what, it fits the story.

Researched all about braces and looked at loads of pics. Wondered if Chris still has to wear a retainer as adult teeth tend to slide back into their former position. Find the thought of a retainer hot. Call myself a freak. Call myself a freak even more when I find pictures of pretty men wearing braces hot.Wonder if I should forget the braces because people will know I'm a freak. Realise that with my default people will probably know anyway, plus the make out scene at the end of the story where Joey licks the braces is probably a clue. Keep the braces bit.

Write some more, no music on in the house so I can concentrate, but MTV is on mute. See baby BSB out of the corner of my eye. Squee and put sound back on, sing along. Next vid is baby Boyzone so sing along again, the next is Westlife, nearly fall of my chair as I try to mute the sound.

Write more. Curse Joey for being an ass. Realise I need the name of some German cakes. Google for German food. Give up after looking at the 70978762 pages of gobbledegoop and skirt the issue.

Corey comes home. Then friend one comes, then friend two. Try to write sex scene with Chris and his boyfriend, give up when friends keep coming to look at the fish next to my desk so I shrink the page, don't need them telling everyone Corey's mam's a pervert.

Open it again as I remember I need to modify the Lance scene, make him sound less of a robot. Try to remember what I was like when I was 17. Give up in disgust. Try to remember what Kayleigh was like last year. Decide Lance probably didn't sound like a Geordie girl with a crush on Pink, then again maybe he did. Decide to wing it anyway.

Made tea.

Friends have gone and Corey is playing on his playstation so I write sex scene. Read what I have so far and am happy. It's so much better than what I deleted.

And now I put Corey in the bath so I can try and get this done tonight, then all my wonderful helpers can see.

Life's good just now :)

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Ant&Dec are over *sob sob*

( Cut even though I'm sure no is going to be spoiled )

No more Ant&Dec :(

All I can say now is...

Doh doh doh do doo
Doh doh doh do doo
Insania!