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The new picture of Chris? Is gorgeous! All that hair, and the bandanna and the jeans...guh!

Going to the drs this morning I was stopped by one of the neighbours who talked for ages and almost made me late. I got there just in time, sat down and listened as an old lady went to the desk and complained about waiting to see the nurse for so long. Of course right at that moment my name flashed up on the board to see the nurse. I could feel the stare of old lady wrath burning a hole in my back as I walked to the room.

(1) The basics. I'm 31 and live in England with my husband, nine year old son, cat, dog and a load of fish. We own our own house and live on the same estate as my mam. My sister lives about a two minutes walk away. My nanna also lives in the same town, as did my other nanna and grandad before they died and my dad before he moved to live with his fiancée. My brother actually moved away, all of one town over *g* I like where I live, the estate is quiet and I know most of the neighbours on a 'I'll say hello if I pass them on the street' basis. Houghton itself is pretty small, one street of shops, half of which are take aways and butchers for some reason. The in laws live a twenty minute drive away, add you own thank god here ;)

(2) I'm a stay at home mam by choice, that way I'm always around for Corey if needed. I can't say it was my dream to be a stay at home mam but I'm quite happy doing so.

(3) I like meeting new people but get so self conscious that I tend to clam up every time I do so, especially in group situations. I always worry I'm going to sound stupid or annoy someone so keep quiet, plus when there's a lot of people talking I always hang back because talking over someone or speaking up to be heard over the other voices makes me go eeep. I also get intimidated easily but am working on that.

(4) The person you read about on here is much more the me than the one people would probably meet in person. I find so many things amusing and have no problems talking about the things I like online. Mainly because here I've no one reacting to me so I'm far less self conscious. Though I do have a habit of second guessing myself online and often abandon comments because I think I sound stupid.

(5) Within the last 14 months I've met more people in real life to talk to that I have for years before that. I'd sort of got into the habit of not going anywhere and when I did James was my buffer to the world. Kayleigh used to pick up Corey from school most days and I stayed in the house because when I did go out my back would ache and I'd get breathless and it was just easier to stop in. A combination of things made me stop that downward spiral. Harsh words from my doctor that I needed to hear, and getting to know people who accepted me for what I am, and despite me having the social skills of a wet lettuce, kept inviting me to things.

(6) I suppose this should go in. I've been losing weight this year and have lost about 6 1/2 stone at the moment. I tend not to speak about it too much in my journal because my weight problem is tied to stuff that I'm working on changing, but yeah. I'm proud of myself for getting this far. It's not easy, I've used food as an emotional crutch for over 20 years now so learning to let that go is hard. I have slip ups, I get frustrated and I crave certain foods at times but I try to remember that I walk to pick Corey up every day now. I go shopping and do more than going from seat to seat. I've still got a heck of a long way to go but I'll get there, eventually.

(7) My humour is very visual based and most jokes leave me cold. I can watch a show like Red Dwarf and have tears of laughter but sit wondering what the hell is funny if a comedian is cracking jokes. I need to see things or imagine them to find them amusing. A problem with a lot of jokes is they're often sexist, racist, something ist and I hate that. I'll never understand how making jokes at someone else's expense is funny.

(8) I'm a trekker and have been so since my teens. Voyager is my show of choice and my top fannish experience was going to a trek con containing nearly all the cast of Voyager. Captain Janeway was there! I had my photo taken with Robbie McNeil (Tom Paris) and had to hang onto the balcony as the realisation that Tom was right there made my legs turn to jelly. Also, at that con Captain Picard made an unexpected visit, taking the stage with Captain Janeway. I may have had tears but I won't admit to it. I collect trek memorabilia and have a book case stuffed with the voyager books and the Star Trek files that you had to buy week after week. Add the trek stuff to the boyband thing, and well, my family tease me a lot.

(9) I find it hard to do two things at once online. For example, I only chat at certain times because when I do I give all my attention to that person. There's no way I could write and chat at the same time as when I write I need to be totally emerged in the story. Plus, it always feels kind of rude doing something else when someone is IMing me. That means I only log onto AIM at specific times as if I left it on all the time I'd get nothing done at all.

(10) I read pretty much anything and have a great love for badfic. It takes a lot to throw me from a story but it does happen, especially if I'm reading something that has Josh and Justy, which just, no! In fact, anything using Josh at all unless the story is an AU or early family based makes me twitch. The same for anyone using James *weeps* But the Josh thing is the worst, I know I have flist friends who read Joshtin but man, I can't see that word without cringing. JuC, sure. Joshtin, heck no. I could go on to mention the dreaded trickykitten here but I'll refrain, especially as a person who has great joy in cramp should throw no stones ;) I love angsty, fucked up, h/c stories but also happily read fluff. Like I said above I read pretty much everything and only one story has ever traumatised me. ( It was Jim Ellison wearing a fluffy argyle jumper and just, gah no. I can't even think about it without remembering that scene which makes me cringe to this day ) Talking about The Sentinel, that was the fandom I first wrote in, that was the fandom that I first became fannish in. It wasn't the cause of me loving darkfic, but where every other story is a h/c and Blair should have died a million times over, it surely didn't stop that love; thank goodness.

There you go, 10 things about me. Now wasn't that just fascinating? ;)