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[turps]

Mam phoned this morning to say Brock wasn't doing well. He's been going downhill all weekend and she'd phoned me late last night to tell me he was falling over when he tried to walk outside. This morning his whole back end had collapsed. His back legs were going under him, he was trying to walk and could manage a few steps by dragging himself along, but that was it. We arranged to take him to the vet, and I think we all thought it was the end. See, I can rationalise to myself that it's not right that he's like this. He's old, over 18. He has tumours everywhere, he's deaf, but he's still happy you know? He'd come to greet you, slowly sure, but he still did, and enjoyed gentle strolls down to my house most nights. If there was any hint he'd been suffering we'd have done something, but there wasn't. He was fine. Today he's not. Mam hasn't the strength to carry him, so I carried him to the car. Of course he peed all down my arm when I did so.

Like I said, we all thought this was it when we were driving there. Mam had him on her knee and was talking to him, and just... I switched on my sparkly cd to have something else to concentrate on, and of course BBB was the first song. I carried him into the vet, and he peed on me again, but the angle I was carrying him meant he got not just me but a lady walking past and the cat she was carrying. James didn't tell me that until later and I'm glad, because I had a tendency to laugh inappropriately when I'm upset, and laughing at the poor woman and her cat wouldn't be good. Man, I'm laughing now, I suck.

So, we waited. It was an emergency appointment so we had to be fit in whenever. There were so many people coming out of rooms crying and how I didn't join them I'll never know. Brock peed on my mam, twice, and I had to mop up the floor. Then I carried him outside and we had a moment. All the time we were waiting for my brother who was at work. Chris was interviewing people so couldn't leave straight away, but said don't do anything until he got there.

We went in, and they said he's got total nerve damage in his back end. Either a tumour has blocked his spine, a disc has collapsed or he's had a stroke. She gave him an injection and tablets and said go back on Wednesday, and the relief. I know the odds he'll come home on Wed are tiny. The vet told us how to put a towel under Brock to hold him up so he can pee, and I think of that and know there's a point where you have to say enough is enough. Plus, mam can't carry him. Believe me, if I have to I'll go when needed to carry him anywhere at anytime, but is that fair on him? Hypothetical question really, I know the answer, but it's Brock, and I've known and loved him for over two thirds of my life. I don't want him to go.

I know we're lucky to have these two days, but I'm still hoping we'll get there on Wednesday and he'll be healed, and that's a hope I'm not letting go of yet, however unrealistic that is.

Brock Lee

Comments

[frayen.livejournal.com]

Oh hon I'm sorry, it's horrible when this happens to a beloved pet.

{{{hugs}}}

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

I know he's only a dog, but I love him a lot.

*hugs back*

[chrismm.livejournal.com]

He's not only a dog, he's part of your family. *hugs you hard* I went through this with Harley, my one true kitty, and it was so hard, so hard. You'll all do what's right for him, I know. *hugs you again*

[raynedanser.livejournal.com]

Awww sweetie, it is so hard when the four-foots of your family are not feeling well. *hugs you tight*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I love that, four foots :)

Thank you.

*hugs back*

[trumpeterofdoom.livejournal.com]

Oh honey, I'm so sorry.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[digital-diva.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

*hugs you back*

[tara]

Oh hun, I'm so sorry :( I hope things get better, and if not, I hope Brock stays happy and not in pain. I experienced much the same thing with the dog I grew up a few years back, and even when you know they're old, it's still just as hard. They're family; it's as simple as that.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

You're right, they are family. I know he's only a dog, but he's our family, and has been for a long time.

Thank you so much for your good wishes.

[goneplatinum.livejournal.com]

Oh Terri, I'm so sorry. I know what it's like to have loved and lost a pet. Back in 1994 we had to put our 13-year-old german shepherd/black lab mixed dog named Sadie down when she developed cancer. It was quick, but I still miss her, even though not even 8 months later we got a puppy named Watson whom I adore.

((hugs)) to you, your mam, and especially Brock.

[abishag.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear that the dog in the picture with that lovely smile (yes *smile*) is so poorly. It's so sad. My thoughts are with you all.

[msktrnanny.livejournal.com]

:hugs:

[patchworkdragon.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. *hugs*

[carta.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey. ::hug::

[rhiannon-jehane.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey, I'm so sorry to hear this.

*hugs tight*

[buddleia.livejournal.com]

I hate having to make that decison. It's always too soon if you love them, regardless of their age. I'm so sorry.

[xoverau.livejournal.com]

Aww, hon, I'm so sorry. *hugs tight*

[pensnest]

It's a heartbreaking situation. No-one can really say "It's *just* a dog", because anyone who ever owned a dog knows how much a dog can mean. I hope everything is clear on Wednesday, and that in the meantime you can keep Brock happy.

[saba1789.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight*

[clear-my-eyes.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[rikes]

*hugs*

[http://users.livejournal.com/_unashamed/]

I am so sorry, hon. It is hard seeing someone you love suffer, human or not. Spend as much time with him as possible, and I'm keeping all my fingers crossed that he'll be better on Wednesday. *hugs tight*

[erilyn.livejournal.com]

It's such an awful situation to be in ::hugs::

[nopseud]

{hugs}

I think with animals, what really matter is, are they still happy? are they in pain? are they no longer getting any joy out of life? And when it gets to that point, then you have to do what's best for them, even when it's hard.

[ceci2176.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[http://users.livejournal.com/_bettina_/]

*hugs*

[clumsygyrl.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry, hon. *hugs*

[ephemera.livejournal.com]

Ohh honey. Poor Brock, and poor you guys. He's a part of your family - it's a tough tough thing.

[iconis.livejournal.com]

[snuggle] :/

[truekat.livejournal.com]

*cuddles you* I have no idea what to say - so many have said so much more than I could. I guess I'll just say, I know the hurt that goes along in a situation like this. It's so painful, trying to decide which is the right thing to do. I know you'll do what's best. It isn't going to be easy, but as much as you love him and he loves you, whatever decision is made, it'll be the right one! *HUGS* to you and your family. Anything like this is never easy! I'll be sending up some special prayers for him! :)

[kaethe.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm so sorry.

[luxshine.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

There are very few things one can say when a beloved pet is so sick.

I can just tell you that I hope for the best too, and that hope is not unrealistic. Sometimes, nature can suprise you. So I'm here, just wishing for the best, for you, and for Brock.

[ninjetti75.livejournal.com]

*no words, just love, support, and HUGS*

[yami-tai.livejournal.com]

*hugs you* I'm so sorry to hear about Brock, hun. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.

[turloughishere.livejournal.com]

Oh Terri!! *sends lots and lots of virtual hugs* It's so awful when this happens to a beloved pet! They're not "just" anything, they're part of the family!! *sends some more hugs*

[ihearthings-ii.livejournal.com]

I love you, Terri.