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[turps]

I've been a BSB fan for years, well before I'd ever heard of Nsync. Since the first day I saw them, Kevin has been my favourite boy. I thought he was gorgeous, talented, just plain wonderful, and I still think that now. Him leaving wasn't exactly a shock, I'd heard the rumours, but hoped they were nothing more than gossip. Sadly that wasn't so. It feels weird thinking of them going on without him. I'm glad they are, but BSB are five, and I try to imagine them as four, and it's just wrong. That'll change of course, things go on and you adapt. They'll be different, but still Backstreet, and I hope they have continued success. I'm also glad he seems to be leaving in such an amicable way.

I don't blame Kevin for this decision. I imagine it must have been a difficult one to make. He's given years to the group, worked like crazy and achieved amazing success. How can anyone blame him for saying he needs something different now? He's given me years of happy memories. Songs I adore, made me laugh and made me cry along with him as he talked about difficult times. I've been amazed at how strong he can be, and lusted after him like crazy over and over again. Him writhing on the ladder/pole thing will forever be one of my favourite clips. I just wish I'd seen him in concert, but some things aren't meant to be.

I don't know what his plans are, but I hope he's happy. I think he deserves that. Thank you, Kevin. You'll always be my favourite boy.

Also, thanks go to the people who emailed me to tell me what was going on. Being prepared helped before logging onto LJ. You're stars.

In rl news. Corey is at scout camp, so James and I are having a child free day. Still are really, I just popped on for ten minutes before some quality alone time. But man, it took some doing getting Corey's gear ready yesterday. Packing his rucksack I discovered his scout trousers had a huge rip, which meant a late night trip to the local Asda. We could have gone earlier, but it was eviction night on Big Brother, no way could I miss that.

We've spent most of today at the cinema, saw some films that Corey's too young to see. So, we saw Ultraviolet ( so boring, like seriously ) The Lake House ( Loved it ) and Thank You For Smoking ( Okay but had the bonus of being in the posh screen with the tippy back seats ) We were going to stay for another movie, but had been there for 6 hours already and my ass was getting numb from sitting so long. It's a pity we didn't stay though. Picking the dog up from mam's James managed to smash her carriage clock. It was an accident but it was my nanna's and mam's been out drinking all day. I'm hoping she just goes home and to bed without seeing it. I mean, we'll pay for it to be fixed but getting that through her head now would be impossible.

Tomorrow we're driving to Lowestoft to take Kay down to Lea's. We're setting off at 8am and this doesn't please me at all as Sunday is my one sleep in day. Which means an early night now I think. It's been a long day.

Comments

[marrymehowie.livejournal.com]

Wow, that ladder/pole thingy was *fantastic*.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

It really was. Each time I watch I have to practically shove my tongue back in my mouth. So damn hot!

[castalie.livejournal.com]

I've just read about Kevin leaving BSB on my flist and immediately thought of you. Like you said, though, things go on and you adapt. Still it sucks when it's your favourite boy.

You Big Brother addict, you! You made me laugh here lol

Three films in one day? Dude, not bad at all! Apart from the Fête du Cinéma, I've never seen more than two films on the same day. It's pretty cool if you ask me *nods* And also, your posh screen makes me drool! I'd never heard of that kind of screen, I swear and now I'm dreaming of one like that...

Good night!

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I've been hearing the rumours for a while, but seeing that he actually was leaving was pretty harsh. I mean, I've been a fan for a long time. But you do adapt. What gets me is the people hating on him for daring to leave. Not that I've read much of that because it just makes me mad.

Dude. LAst night I was pulling my hair out! I was positive everything was ready for camp. I knew where the mats were, the sleeping bag. Then I looked at his trousers and there was a huge rip. Because it was his normal Scout night anyway I didn't find that out until after he came back, which was 9ish. WHich is when the eviction was on. In the end we went to the shop after 11 *blush*

The plan was for 4 movies, but we just couldn't do it. But I had a wonderful day. Instead of real meals I had junky sweets, which is bad I know, but it's a one time treat thing, and we just went from movie to movie. Oh man. The tippy back seats are amazing! Of course you risk falling asleep in them *g*

I'd better get off to bed. Tomorrow will be here far too soon. Night night, sis. Don't let the bugs bite.

[iconis.livejournal.com]

I didn't have any idea of any rumors such as this going on. I'm fucking fucked up (pardon my French) over Kevin. It just hits on a very personal level, even though all I want is happiness for him.

Wah. :( [snug]

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I can understand that. We invest so much in these people, and think they'll always be there. That they're not is a shock. Especially after listening to years of how they're brothers, will always be together.

I'd say it's normal to want him to be happy while being fucked up over him leaving. I want him to be happy too, but right now I can't imagine Backstreet without him. So, I get the confused emotions.

To me what it comes down to is, it's Kevin, and he's left and yeah, wah :(

*smooches you*

You know if you ever need to talk more you know where I am.

[kaethe.livejournal.com]

There were rumors? Huh. Shows how tapped into BSB fandom I am.

What you said pretty much reflects my feelings. As long as they're not breaking up because they hate each other, I can live with it.

And also? As I'm typing, this picture you have on your sidebar with Chris in the red shirt and longish hair is staring at me, and that? Makes it really hard not to be at least a little happy.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Yeah, there's been rumours that he's leaving for the last week or so. People had actually asked the other Boys about them and they denied it. Which has upset some people. But really, what did they expect them to say?

Kevin leaving seems to be happening in a civil way, I'm especially glad the door's been left open for him to return. Even if he never does, at least that option has been left for him. Thinking of them hating each other would have made this so much worse.

Hee. Chris is the bringer of happiness. At least he is to me ;)

[turloughishere.livejournal.com]

I was very glad too that I got to read Raven's mail before I opened LJ. It made it a little easier to handle, though I have to admit I still cried when I read the statements. And it's silly really, I've only been a fan for little over a year but still I feel so bereft and... empty. Even if I definitely understand why he's done it, I'm still feeling like a small child when someone takes away their shiny toy! I can't imagine how it would feel if I'd been a fan for many years. *sends you many, many hugs*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I can understand that reaction. They're so important to us, and we think they'll always be there. I mean, BSB came back from hiatus, looked like they were having a great time, and then this. It's like they gave us something then snatched it away. Of course, I know rationally it's not like that at all, and if it's Kevin's time to leave it's good that he did. Hanging on would be good for nobody. I hope he achieves his dreams, because that man deserves every happiness. He's made so many others happy too, and I love him for that.

*hugs tight* I hope you're feeling a little better today.

[turloughishere.livejournal.com]

Oh yes, but when I was listening to Never Gone while I did the dishes yesterday I had to skip forward past Incomplete, I just couldn't listen to it. The piano! *sends many hugs back*

[withdiamonds.livejournal.com]

We invest so much emotionally in all these boys, and I do it freely and with love, but it can hurt sometimes.

*smooches*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Yeah, we really do. It does hurt that he's left, but he's given me so many memories, and it looks like it's the right thing for him to do. I wish him well.

[rockerbabyz.livejournal.com]

I was a BSB fan before *nsync too and I'm sad to see Kevin go but I respect his decison. It's sad but...good? in a way.

And I really really really wanna see THe Lake House!!! I love Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock together and that plot looks intriguing too.

I'd love to go to the movie theater for one movie after the other all day lol.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I'm a hiatus Nsync fan, but have been fannish about BSB from the start. You're totally right, it is sad that he's left, but yeah, good too. Because this is about him not us, and I think he's going on to things that are good for him.

Oh, The Lake House was wonderful. The chemistry between Keanu and Sandra is still great, they're awesome together.

Shame you didn't live closer, we could have a movie marathon day :)

[tara]

Likewise, I'm glad to have read about it on here before logging onto MySpace to add a friend and seeing Howie's rather sterile bulletin announcement :/ So thanks for that *hugs*

I'm looking at the whole thing as something that's sad... but that could have been so much sadder. And I'm mostly just feeling thankful for everything he's given all of us :)

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I was really glad to get a heads up before finding out myself. It seems like such a big thing, and I still can't imagine them without him. Probably won't until I see them perform. When I'll miss him again. *hugs back*

But yeah, it could have been so much worse. It looks like he's left on really good terms, and like you, I'm thankful for all he's given us.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_unashamed/]

I am sorry about Kevin leaving the group (though that makes it sounds like it's my fault, and it isn't, I swear!). But he deserves to be happy, and if the group isn't what he wants anymore, it's his decision. *hugs tight*

Movie marathon!! The most I've ever watched in a row (in cinema) was 2 movies. I'm not sure if I'd be up to 3. ;)

[turps33.livejournal.com]

It was you that made him leave! Grrrrr ;)

No, you're right. He does deserve to be happy and I can't see him leaving lightly. I wish him well for the future, even though I do miss him. *hugs back*

Man, three movies just about did me in. It sounds so easy, just sitting there and watching, but it takes it out of you *g*

[boozlebomb.livejournal.com]

It's sad about Kevin :( I was just about to post something about it too.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Yeah, he's going to be a miss. He's such a vital part of the Boys, I can't imagine them without him just yet.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_bettina_/]

I didn't know about the rumors (shows you how much I've been following the fandom news lately :-/), so this came as a shock to me. It's sad to see him go, but I hope he'll be happy.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I only found out last week, but dismissed them as the usual rumours that seem to always do the rounds. I'm sad too, Backstreet won't be the same without him, but I figure there's good reasons he's going. I really hope he's happy too.

[yami-tai.livejournal.com]

Oh, I really want to see The Lake House, so I'm glad you recommend it ^_~! We saw Tokyo Drift last night and I loved it *g*!

[turps33.livejournal.com]

It's a really good film. The time aspect made my head ache a little, but the rest more than made up for that. Keanu and Sandra, they've still got it!

[rikes]

:(

I've always been a group fan, so it's going to be weird without Kevin first.

[ihearthings-ii.livejournal.com]

kevin was 'old' when they started, I completely understand his decision to step away from all of this, have children, all these things.

still. Kevin!