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[turps]

We took Moffet to be cremated yesterday. I wasn't sure about going at first, but I brought her home from the rescue centre, it was only right I took her on her last journey. She was in a box our Sky system came in, which was fitting. She did love lying on the Sky system, probably because it was warm. She was wrapped in the t-shirt I was wearing the day that she died. I know it's silly, but it was a way to keep her warm, and also sort of offering my shoulder. The place she spent so many hours.

The lady at the pet crematorium was lovely. I was a little unsure at first, because due to laws she was located in an industrial estate, and was next to a lorry repair shop, but inside it was perfect. Calm and dignified. She placed Moffet's box onto a pet basket that was made up for viewing, then we talked a little. She's coming home in a mahogany casket with her name on the top, and the lady asked if we wanted some hair cut off a placed in a pouch that we could keep. Beforehand I wouldn't have been sure, but after a day needing to touch the places Moffet lay, resting my fingers over the remaining hairs. Well, having some reminder of her made sense.

She asked if we wanted to say goodbye then, and again, I wasn't sure. But I said yes, and she put Moffet in the basket. She was covered in my t-shirt and just looked like she was asleep. At least until you touched and looked close. She was cold, and that life that made Moffet Moffet was gone. You know I don't believe in god or any of that stuff, but since then I've imagined Moffet meeting Brock, her stalking disdainfully up to him and washing herself and him running around like the idiot he used to be. Them both patiently waiting. It's better imagining that than some of the other things that won't leave my mind. That's why I want to take the tumbler outside and smash it to bits, and why I've thrown away all the clothes that were in that wash. It's left me with a significant gap in my wardrobe I can actually wear, but Moffet died in those clothes. My brother had put them in the wash again, but when I took them out they were covered in matted Moffet hair. No way could I wear them again.

Anyway, we left her in the end, and she's coming home next week sometime. Which is good as there's a Moffet sized hole in all our lives right now. Freesia isn't eating, which if you know her isn't usual at all, and spends the day lying in her fluffy boot house. Tex just lies behind the couch. I guess even if they did spend most of the time fighting, they really did love her.

Man, my posts have been depressing lately. I'm sorry about that. Again, I want to say thank you to everyone that replied in my last post. You all gave such comfort, and really, I've said it before, but I'm so lucky to be surrounded by such lovely people. I'm sorry that you're not getting individual replies, but know that I appreciated every comment, and the virtual gifts. Also, a huge thank you to geeklite, because of her I'm around until 2009, I bet you're all thrilled *g*

I'd arranged to take my nanna out for the day today, but I'll catch up with you all when I get back.

Comments

[bubbleforest.livejournal.com]

Oh no. I only heard about this today and I'm so, so sorry this happened to you. I can't even imagine how this must all feel. I hope you're all getting through it okay. *snug*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thanks, honey.

We're getting there, and I know soon the happy memories will way out-weight the bad.

[geeklite.livejournal.com]

{{{hugs}}} Well, I just had all this paid time I hadn't yet transferred from when I got a permanent account ;)

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I've been trying to email you my thanks, but keep getting bounced back. So, you may get thanked dozens of times *g*

But, I'll say it again. Thank you.

*squeezes you*

[digital-diva.livejournal.com]

I'm around until 2009

*groans* I need to have a serious talk with the Universe, man.

;-)

*snuggles*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I don't know, you have a permanent account, which means you're around forever. I think you get the better deal ;)

*snuggles with you*

[adelate]

I don't mean to sound weird or anything, but this post to me underlines how you're such a wonderful person, Terri. I'm glad you'll be around until 2009. :)

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thank you, honey.

[callsigns.livejournal.com]

I'm around until 2009

I couldn't be more thrilled. So much love to you.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *mwah*

[vaudevilles.livejournal.com]

It sounds like you honoured Moffet beautifully.

*hugs*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I hope so. She deserved the best.

*leans*

[trumpeterofdoom.livejournal.com]

*hugs* She couldn't've had a better owner than you.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thanks, JM.

*hugs back*

[withdiamonds.livejournal.com]

I keep thinking about you, Terri. How hard this all must have been, and again, I'm so sorry. I don't blame you for throwing out the clothes. I hope you're right and the good memories push the bad ones aside after a while.

And yay for you being around until at least 2009.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I had to throw out the clothes. I know I could have got rid of the hairs, but the memories were imprinted for good. No way could I wear something knowing Moffet had been wrapped in it.

I have a lot of good Moffet memories, so I'm sure the bad ones will be edged away soon. She was a wonderful cat, and deserves to be remembered with love.

Thank you so much for all your comments, Donna. They helped a lot.

[turloughishere.livejournal.com]

It sounds like Moffet got a wonderful send-off! When Sinbad died my aunt asked if I wanted to bury him at their place and that's what I ended up doing. It's in a beautiful spot under a huge birch (their own cats are buried there as well) and when I visit I usually go and sit there for a little while and remember all the good times Sinbad and I had.

I would've done exactly the same thing with those clothes!

Yay! for you being around for a long time!!!!

[turps33.livejournal.com]

That does sound like a lovely spot for Sinbad to be buried. I decided not to bury Moffet because my imagination is too vivid at times. My garden is really small and I know I'd be sitting imagining her under the ground. But, she did get a good send off.

Yay! for you being around for a long time!!!!

It was such a lovely surprise.

[ariadnem.livejournal.com]

I couldn't be there when Dona was cremated. It was too painful and God, I hated and still hate the way she died and all that happened that day. They took care of everything at her Vet's office. We just couldn't. Juan couldn't even see her when she died; he couldn't even see the babies. I did.

I'm so sorry you have to go through all this, it's so horribly painful.

*hugs*

Treasure the good moments, well, that's what I'm trying to do now, otherwise, I'll keep on crying at home every time I'm alone and her absence is too unbearable.

*sigh*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Losing a pet is so hard, it's pointless forcing yourself to do something you're not up to doing at the end. I know Dona knew you loved her, you didn't have to be there when she was cremated.

I hope your good memories are plentiful now.

*hugs tight*

[kirsten-lynch.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry about Moffet.

One of the hardest things I ever had to do in my life was have Frosted Flake euthanized, and I couldn't even be there with him to hold him because I was in Pittsburgh for work. Thankfully, my sister was there for him, and he loved her, too, so he had someone there he was comfortable with. I cried and cried and cried. I couldn't even go back into work that day. I couldn't let him suffer, though, and he couldn't breathe outside of a pure oxygen environment. Why would I do that to him just so he could die with me?

Frosty was only about 2 years old. :(

I had him cremated, too. I'm so glad I did. I will do the same with Lucky Cow and Buddha when that day comes. I hope it isn't for a long, long time.

Lucky Cow was soooooo depressed. He barely ate. He pretty much just laid in Frosty's spot in the living room. I hated it! I finally decided he needed a new brother and went and adopted Buddha. That really helped him a lot.

I am sitting here crying so hard right now. I can read about people dying and be sad, but not cry. I can't handle pets dying though. I've always had such a tight bond with my cats. The are family. And seeing as I will probably never have children, they're the closest I will come to that, too.

*hugs*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Losing a pet is a horrible thing. I think unless you've gone through that loss yourself and are an animal lover, that loss is hard to understand.

I cry when animals die too. They're so loving, always there for the people they love. I'm glad you have animals around you like that.

*hugs tight*

[luxshine.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm glad you're going to be here around until 2009, and hopefuly, longer than that ;)

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I plan to be around for a long time!

*hugs you*

[canalbaby.livejournal.com]

That sounds like a lovely send-off for Moffet.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

It was. Very dignified. Which was important.

[zillahseye.livejournal.com]

Poor kitty, and poor you. *hug hug hug*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thank you, honey.

[dine.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you found such a wonderful way to say goodbye - it won't make up for the hole in your family, but that sounds very dignified and respectful, and leaves you with a better end memory.

it's so hard to lose our furry family members; I've been thinking of you and Moffet so much in the past few days

*hugs*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

It was a lovely way to say goodbye. The whole service was wonderful in fact.

I do miss her so, but knowing she was treated so well at the end helped a little.

*hugs back*

[clumsygyrl.livejournal.com]

*hugstight*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thank you, honey.

[soul4poetry.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss my love. I know how tragic and stressful it was for you and I hope you'll one day find some peace with it all. *big huge hugs* My heart goes out to yours.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Tara.

*hugs back*

[kifty.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm so sorry about Moffet.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

*hugs back*

[chrismm.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could pop over there to just hug you for a long time. I know you all loved her so much.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I did love her so.

Thank you.

[ninjetti75.livejournal.com]

*more hugs*

It sounds like you've managed some decent closure, at least. I'm glad for that Our family has always had big dogs, and unfortunately, that means they tend to wear out. Roly died abruptly last year, and that was painful, but the last two before him, we had to euthanize. However a pet is lost, it still leaves such a hole, in the whole family. I'm sad for Fresia and Tex, too; I saw how they fought, but they loved, too. They fought like siblings, and they mourn that way, too.

*hugs* to you, Terri-luv, and pass them on to Tex & Fresia.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Josh.

It was good closure and I'm glad she was laid to rest with dignity. She was always a dignified cat, so she deserved that end.

*hugs*

[sassyrose88.livejournal.com]

I'm gonna agree with adelate on this one. While reading this post, I was totally struck by your soft heart. It's obvious you're a very tender compassionate person. Sounds like Moffet was a very blessed lil friend.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thank you, honey.

I loved Moffet deeply, and I miss her so much. I'm so glad I'm surrounded by people who will listen. So, thank you.

[ihearthings-ii.livejournal.com]

I didn't know you could have your pets cremated, I like that. *mwah*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I didn't until Brock died. But I'm glad you can.

*leans*

[ephemera.livejournal.com]

**snuggles you**

[turps33.livejournal.com]

*smooch*

Thank you.

[saba1789.livejournal.com]

*sends hugs and much love*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thanks, honey.

*mwah*

[jclovergrace.livejournal.com]

The icon that I used for this is named "Days go by..."--and it's fairly saddish. But JC's song says, afterward, "things get better." They do; but they often take time. Give yourself time.

Thanks for sharing more about Moffet. :) You treated her wonderfully and I think that this part, "She was in a box our Sky system came in, which was fitting. She did love lying on the Sky system, probably because it was warm. She was wrapped in the t-shirt I was wearing the day that she died. I know it's silly, but it was a way to keep her warm, and also sort of offering my shoulder. The place she spent so many hours." was especially sweet.

When my daughter's beloved cat of many years died we had her cremated, too; and it seemd as though it would be odd and sterile--but they were very nice about it where we went, too; bless those people for understanding that the love we have for our friends doesn't disappear because they're no longer with us. And (I would never have considered that they had such a thing!), bless them for providing a way for us to bring them back home again, too.

*hugs*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

It's good advice. Time is a healer, but when things are raw it's hard to remember that at first.

Thank you for reading about Moffet. It helps that people do read, and understand that while these are animals, they're loved too. I miss her a lot, but I keep reminding myself that she was loved deeply.

I'm so glad I found someone respectful and nice to cremate Moffet, and that your daughter did too. It hurts to let them go, but knowing they've been left with someone that understands is a blessing. I'm glad you got that too.

Thank you, for reading and commenting.

*hugs back*