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turpsThis week, it's been weird.
On Tuesday mam was supposed to go for a more invasive biopsy, one where she'd have to spent all day in hospital. We drove her there, were waiting before 9am, left her at 10, and then got a phone call saying they weren't doing the biopsy after all. Went back and picked her up, and found out the scan had show the tumour in her lung had shrank, so the doctor thought it was better to leave it.
Yesterday the specialist nurse called and said that mam doesn't have to have any more treatment or tests, just go back to the hospital the end of January to check how big the tumour is, and that while she couldn't risk her job by saying it's not cancer, the tumour doesn't act or look like cancer, and if it was mam would be getting weaker not healthier. Also, that the lit up spots that had suggested the cancer had spread were gone now.
This is just. Two months ago they'd written her off, she was frail, weak, could barely walk and the doctor all but said if it was cancer no treatment would be given because she wouldn't be able to survive it. Now she hasn't had a drink or a smoke in nine weeks, is healthier than I can remember her being for years and actually goes out with us. We went Christmas shopping together two days ago, and that's not a big thing but she doesn't do that, she was always out drinking and now we've had all these meals as a family and her house has been completely redecorated so it doesn't smell like a kipper house and there's been no nasty calls or texts to deal with.
I can't fully believe things will stay like this, a lifetime of dealing with her drinking means I'm all too aware that the other foot could drop, but right now, she's good. Really good.
These last two months have sucked in so many ways, not just mam, but something personal for me too. I've wanted to head desk often, got frustrated and scared, and have spent countless hours hanging out in hospitals thinking my mam was going to die -- and now there's a good chance she'll be okay.
If anyone was ever given a second chance this was it. We all know that, and I hope she doesn't forget that.
Thank you to everyone who's been there for me through all this, my friends who had my back always, the comments, emails and support. You'll never know how much it meant, or how much it helped.
ETA: That foot didn't take long to drop.
On Tuesday mam was supposed to go for a more invasive biopsy, one where she'd have to spent all day in hospital. We drove her there, were waiting before 9am, left her at 10, and then got a phone call saying they weren't doing the biopsy after all. Went back and picked her up, and found out the scan had show the tumour in her lung had shrank, so the doctor thought it was better to leave it.
Yesterday the specialist nurse called and said that mam doesn't have to have any more treatment or tests, just go back to the hospital the end of January to check how big the tumour is, and that while she couldn't risk her job by saying it's not cancer, the tumour doesn't act or look like cancer, and if it was mam would be getting weaker not healthier. Also, that the lit up spots that had suggested the cancer had spread were gone now.
This is just. Two months ago they'd written her off, she was frail, weak, could barely walk and the doctor all but said if it was cancer no treatment would be given because she wouldn't be able to survive it. Now she hasn't had a drink or a smoke in nine weeks, is healthier than I can remember her being for years and actually goes out with us. We went Christmas shopping together two days ago, and that's not a big thing but she doesn't do that, she was always out drinking and now we've had all these meals as a family and her house has been completely redecorated so it doesn't smell like a kipper house and there's been no nasty calls or texts to deal with.
I can't fully believe things will stay like this, a lifetime of dealing with her drinking means I'm all too aware that the other foot could drop, but right now, she's good. Really good.
These last two months have sucked in so many ways, not just mam, but something personal for me too. I've wanted to head desk often, got frustrated and scared, and have spent countless hours hanging out in hospitals thinking my mam was going to die -- and now there's a good chance she'll be okay.
If anyone was ever given a second chance this was it. We all know that, and I hope she doesn't forget that.
Thank you to everyone who's been there for me through all this, my friends who had my back always, the comments, emails and support. You'll never know how much it meant, or how much it helped.
ETA: That foot didn't take long to drop.
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Date: 2011-11-18 01:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-11-19 07:51 pm (UTC)Thank you!
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Date: 2011-11-18 04:50 pm (UTC)And, yes, enjoy this time with your Mam. Each day is precious. My dad never gave up his drinking and it sucked and it killed him.
{{{{hugs}}}}
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Date: 2011-11-18 05:00 pm (UTC)But what I suspected would happen has. Less than 24 hours after learning she's not in any risk of dying any time soon she's down the pub pissed out of her brain.
That other foot didn't stay up long.
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Date: 2011-11-18 07:23 pm (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2011-11-19 06:40 pm (UTC)It's frustrating because she's so much healthier now, and is on the verge of throwing it all away.
Thank you ♥
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Date: 2011-11-19 05:17 am (UTC)*hugs you tight* You're strong, T. *hugs you again*
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Date: 2011-11-19 06:38 pm (UTC)Thank you ♥
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Date: 2011-11-21 11:41 am (UTC)As for the rest. I guess all we can do is keep on keeping on.
Thank you.
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Date: 2011-11-18 06:26 pm (UTC)I'm glad things appear to be looking up. *hugs you again*
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Date: 2011-11-18 06:34 pm (UTC)ETA: That foot didn't take long to drop.
And I'm so sorry to hear that. :(
*sends some good vibes*
*hugs*
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Date: 2011-11-19 02:29 pm (UTC)*hugs back*
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Date: 2011-11-18 08:38 pm (UTC)*big hugs*
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Date: 2011-11-19 02:28 pm (UTC)Thank you <3
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Date: 2011-11-19 02:28 pm (UTC)Sometimes life does amazing things, and while I think we'd all be happier knowing just what the tumour actually is, that it's going has to be celebrated.
Thank you for all you support ♥
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Date: 2011-11-19 02:26 pm (UTC)Thank you ♥
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Date: 2011-11-18 11:18 pm (UTC)<3
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Date: 2011-11-19 02:25 pm (UTC)♥
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Date: 2011-11-18 11:30 pm (UTC)*smishes you tight*
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Date: 2011-11-19 02:24 pm (UTC)The eta isn't the best, but she's not going to die. That's an amazing thing, and something that has to be celebrated.
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