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James' grandad had a stroke yesterday and is in hospital. But you know what the bad thing is? I'm not really upset about it, maybe I would be if I went to see him, but sitting here, nope.

The thing is he doesn't like me, never has. In the 12 years I've been with James he's maybe once talked directly to me, and that was when we first started dating. Since then and especially after his wife died we've just been non people to him. He doesn't send cards at xmas etc, even to Corey and once when we saw him in Sunderland town centre he was going to walk past until James went up to him.

God, I'm such a bitch, he's lying in hospital and was crying in James' arms last night and I don't feel anything.

An old meme

I've a free day and was going to spent it writing. I even made myself not open any browser windows so I wouldn't get distracted reading something. LJ doesn't count But I need a break now, so after a hint from rhiannon_jehane I'm going to do an old meme that she just did. Already she knows that I like talking about myself *g* ( cut for those not interested )

Wow, that took a long time! Back to writing.