(no subject)

[turps]

I swear I'm never going to let my friend near my computer again. Which is a way of saying Jill's just gone and we've had a wonderful time. She loves to check the dating sites and friendsreunited so we can sit and gossip about school. When I went to the site I had an e-mail from a girl that used to be one of my best friends. We went to hockey every week until we drifted apart when our lives went in different directions. But she sent a lovely mail showing she still remembers all my family and saying we should meet up. Which we might if I can get over this stupid fear of meeting people. While we were checking all the other people we knew Jill and I saw one guy had his e-mail addy on his info page. ( you have to pay to mail using the site ) so she persuaded me to mail him. This guy who won't have a clue who we are. He was one of the cool kids, Jill and I just weren't *g* The only thing I'm thankful for is I used my backup yahoo addy so he won't know my main one.

She also had a bit of a read of the story I was writing before she arrived and asked why I didn't try and get paid for writing. Which is becoming one of my most frustrating questions. Because I'm not good enough. It's that simple. Not that I really care about her asking as she's only got my best interests at heart. Sadly she also accidentally put the chair leg on my toes and sat on it, leading to one being skinned and hurting like crazy. But still, I had fun, helped by the fact that yesterday James found out the work situation isn't as bad as he was told. Which meant I could actually breath again after two days. Things aren't 100% but they're a hell of a lot better than they were.

So, like I said above I've actually got a start on my soap opera challenge. Strange thing is it's turned into a trickyfish, which it just isn't supposed to be. I said yesterday that I find it hard to write Lance, and I do, simply because I always think he has to be snarky and I can't do that. Thinking about the snark ties me up and he's more than that anyway. So yes, it's trickyfish and also a totally different story to what I planned. Which just shows that I don't know what the hell I'm doing really.

Now I have pictures to post. That is if I can. My connection's been spotty all day and I have no idea why.

Comments

[suzw71.livejournal.com]

TRICKYFISH!!!

Sorry, I just got really excited there for a moment. I'll try to control myself in the future.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

LOL.

No control needed in my LJ ;)

Trickyfish is a pairing I love but one I've written very little of, so I hope you're still so excited when it's actually done *g*

[kirsten-lynch.livejournal.com]

I get asked the writing professionally question a lot, too. I don't think I'm qualified for that, either. That, and I would need to write something that wasn't fanfic. ;)

[turps33.livejournal.com]

It's just so frustrating you know?

I write because I enjoy it, I have no desire to write professionally.

Then yeah, the no fanfic thing would scare me too ;)

[kirsten-lynch.livejournal.com]

I have a curiosity about writing professionally... what it would be like to see my book in a bookstore... but I know I'm not good enough. I would have to release on one of those sites that prints them as people buy them, and that's expensive! *laughs*

Plus, character development! I would actually have to make original characters!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_bettina_/]

Stories have a mind of their own :-).

[turps33.livejournal.com]

They do *g*

I had the soap opera one planned totally. The thing that I'm writing is nothing like the plan.

[ninjetti75.livejournal.com]

Yay for friends and the work situation, and I'm sure your story will work itself out.

And if you need any help with the snark, mine is always available, lol

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thank you :D

Yeah, I know you're the best at snark ;)

[ceci2176.livejournal.com]

She also had a bit of a read of the story I was writing before she arrived and asked why I didn't try and get paid for writing. Which is becoming one of my most frustrating questions. Because I'm not good enough. It's that simple.
I'm not going to say that I agree with you on that second-to-last statement, but I'm well acquainted with the question and I do give the same answer as you do. I can write dialogue, and that's it. You're just...great.

I've actually got a start on my soap opera challenge.
Ooooh!

Strange thing is it's turned into a trickyfish, which it just isn't supposed to be.
*grins* Well, as long as it's tricky....

So yes, it's trickyfish and also a totally different story to what I planned. Which just shows that I don't know what the hell I'm doing really.
*hehe* You had me fooled. ;-)

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Thanks for saying so, you're always so great for my ego :) But I really don't think I'd be good enough, plus I have no desire to write professionally. Yet every time someone finds out I write they ask why I don't do it for money.

I also think you're not giving yourself enough credit about your writing.

I'm just glad to get started on the soap opera thing, even if it's heading into Trickyfish land *g*

[ceci2176.livejournal.com]

Thanks for saying so, you're always so great for my ego :)
And you for mine. ;-)

I have no desire to write professionally.
*nods* That's really it, isn't it? Because if you do, there are all these people telling you what they think you should write, and you feel like you have to grant their wishes because if you don't they won't buy your books anymore.

I also think you're not giving yourself enough credit about your writing.
It's very difficult for me to not be very self-critical. That way, no matter how much someone else tells me what I do suck, it won't hurt as much since I feel that way myself. Or something. I'll try to improve, though. Both the giving myself credit part and the writing part. ;-)

I'm just glad to get started on the soap opera thing, even if it's heading into Trickyfish land *g*
I'm just quoting Chris here: "Lance is dating me." *eg*

[erilyn.livejournal.com]

Yay for trickyfish! It can be a sneaky little pairing ;)

[turps33.livejournal.com]

I love reading trickyfish, it's the writing that's the problem *g*

[seiyaharris.livejournal.com]

Mum's always saying things like 'can't you write a book and make lots of money and keep me in my old age?' and I just sort of look at her until she goes away *g*
I nearly had an argument with dad 'cause he was telling me I should do web designing for money and I couldn't get through to him that I just wasn't good enough! But he kept arguing that he'd seen some of my sites and they were tonnes better than some of the sites he'd seen that people had paid for and I couldn't get across that it was the people's fault they didn't get websites that were any good, I'd feel guilty taking money from proper site creators for the mediocre work I can do. But yes, totally know where you're coming from *g*
(And hey, it's all good if you don't wanna do it professionally, but you never know what'll happen in the future, and you're better than a lot of the stuff you read every day. So um, there? *g*)
[TrickyFish!]

[ihearthings-ii.livejournal.com]

that's so good to hear, about James! *dances*
also, yes. I wish I was that good, but alas. no.