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turpsWriting again, well supposed to be, in reality I'm watching the Recess marathon on Cartoon Network *g* But I do have The End 3 open,it's just hard going dealing with the utter misery just now. Daryl's grieving, Jim's feeling guilty, Blair is emotionally numb, on the verge of becoming pissed at Jim, Joel is trying to care for everyone and not thinking of himself, Abigail's a scared kid, and I have 3 OC's that I keep forgetting about. Just a regular day in TS universe *g*
Last night I did a part where Blair isn't really grieving for Simon. This is it
Squashed in the backseat, Blair shifted, moving his leg slightly where it rested across the laps of Samuel and Jill. He was hot, dirty and emotionally numb. Simon’s death not really real yet. It was callous but to Blair, Simon was only one of a multitude, one more death to add to the growing list. Emma, Simon, his students and friends. They all blended together, but for now it was the only way that Blair could cope. He’d grieve for Simon later, the crash from numbness to all too painful grief hard. But not yet, not when Daryl veered from rage to despair, and Jim looked carved in stone.
I read that this morning and thought, hell that is callous. Yet I think he could deal with Simon's death like that. He does care, just it's all too much to deal with yet. But then I think of canon, how when Blair saw tragedy he tended to react straight away, so would the reaction I wrote be ooc?
The thing is I have a plan, Blair is going to be numb, coping in his own way, Jim is bottled up too. Despite them loving one another they're totally freezing each other out. Then something happens, releases the cork on all the tension and grief and Blair erupts. Not in a crying fit, but anger. Anger that everything's changed that he can't stop any of it, and anger that once again Jim's pushing him away. I see a fight like Warrior's both men furious with the world but taking it out on one another. A huge stand up argument.
Hee I've talked myself into keeping that scene. I also know where the dog's coming into the story now. You all were a great help lol.
Last night I did a part where Blair isn't really grieving for Simon. This is it
Squashed in the backseat, Blair shifted, moving his leg slightly where it rested across the laps of Samuel and Jill. He was hot, dirty and emotionally numb. Simon’s death not really real yet. It was callous but to Blair, Simon was only one of a multitude, one more death to add to the growing list. Emma, Simon, his students and friends. They all blended together, but for now it was the only way that Blair could cope. He’d grieve for Simon later, the crash from numbness to all too painful grief hard. But not yet, not when Daryl veered from rage to despair, and Jim looked carved in stone.
I read that this morning and thought, hell that is callous. Yet I think he could deal with Simon's death like that. He does care, just it's all too much to deal with yet. But then I think of canon, how when Blair saw tragedy he tended to react straight away, so would the reaction I wrote be ooc?
The thing is I have a plan, Blair is going to be numb, coping in his own way, Jim is bottled up too. Despite them loving one another they're totally freezing each other out. Then something happens, releases the cork on all the tension and grief and Blair erupts. Not in a crying fit, but anger. Anger that everything's changed that he can't stop any of it, and anger that once again Jim's pushing him away. I see a fight like Warrior's both men furious with the world but taking it out on one another. A huge stand up argument.
Hee I've talked myself into keeping that scene. I also know where the dog's coming into the story now. You all were a great help lol.
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Date: 2003-08-07 11:28 am (UTC)Seriously, I'm glad you decided to keep that scene. *g* No, to me it doesn't necessarily sound like ooc.
First: a catastrophe *this* big did never occur in Blair's life so far, so nobody knows how he would ract. The *usual* reaction isn't really an indicator for this kind of situation. Simply because the rest of Blair's life isn't there anymore to fall back to.
Second: Yes, we did see Blair reacting and coping with the loss of friends, meaning tragedies that stroke him (sweet roy and the girl that worked for cyclops oil in warriors) but neither of them was as close to him as Simon. So we don't really have a clue how he would deal with the loss of a really near friend *on top of a catastrophe that destroyed his whole former life*.
It's entirely up to you, but like you, I see him closing down more likely than bursting out in tears constantly. Not only because of his own emotions, but there come other factors to the game as well.
They have to survive, other people depent on the group. In order to survive, everybody has to *function* as well as possible. I think Blair would do his best to not cause more problems for the group, on the contrary, I think he would feel a certain responsibility for the group (as well as Jim). Not only because he is Jim's partner, but because he is (so far I see and remember) one of just three grown up males here. And all of the three are handicapped in one way or the other. Blair is injured, Joel is not the very youngest man anymore and Jim? Jim will have a foreseeable (for Blair) breakdown because he felt he is part of the chain of causes that caused Simon's death. So the last thing Blair would want is, to be emotional needy himself, while waiting for the other shoe (in form of Jim) to drop.
The combination of all of this could pretty much cause this way of dealing with Simon's death. There's no time for grieving *right now*. Aside from the fact that he must be pretty exhausted emotionally. Too exhausted to feel a lot of grieve. There is just so much you can grieve about at the same time.
Really, I don't see a problem with the scenario you had in mind, on the contrary, I think it sounds pretty realistic.
Pat
:-)