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turpsIt was my latest wls appointment today
It was all positive. Since the start of this process I've lost 98 pounds which is pretty good.
I got to talk to the surgeon and he's approved me for mini bypass surgery. It's still a serious operation, but not as long or complicated as the main bypass, but both usually have the same results, which tend to be an 80% excess weight drop. The downside is I'll have to take lifelong vitamins to make up for not absorbing them properly.
I asked if my lymphodemia would be an issue, and he said it wouldn't be operation wise, but they wouldn't have stockings to fit afterwards, as you're supposed to wear them for a while to prevent clots. So I suspect some self injecting clot drugs may be in my future. That or they somehow magic up some giant stockings.
The senior consultant was asked to come in as I'm still on the high side weight wise of people they'll operate on, and he had me lie on the bed and check my stomach, and said there shouldn't be an issue as I'm carrying a lot of my extra weight on my hips. Which Pauline agreed with when I was talking to her when I got home, she said she could see a noticeable difference in my face, shoulders and chest area, and then mam said I had a floppy belly when I was at hers. Which I guess is a sort of compliment.
I had bloods taken, told I had to ensure I didn't put any weight on while waiting, and was told I'd be on a special liver shrinking diet for a while before being admitted. Something I knew anyway as I've been lurking on wls forums for ages now.
So yeah. All good. I've thought so much about this. Wondered if I could keep on losing myself without surgical help, and maybe I could do for a while. But I know myself, one slip, one loosing of my willpower where I think it'll be okay if I have multiple takeaways, to tell myself that one Mcdonalds flurry won't make a difference. It's a slippery slope and I've plummeted down it plenty of times in the past.
Right now I feel healthier than I have in ages. I'm swimming, walking, socialising. I'm enjoying things like actually having a selection of clothes I can fit in, clothes I actually like. I don't want to end up confined to my bed or chair with knees that have given under the strain and unable to move.
I need to be here for Corey as he continues to grow. For James, because it's inevitable his disability will get worse in the future. But mostly for me. I want to buy clothes from any shop, not just the plus sized ones. I want to fly in an aeroplane, learn to drive. To sit in those stupid metal chairs with arms at the seafront cafe. Though I'm really close to that now. One day I'll post a picture of me doing victory arms while sitting on one of those things and people will think, what the hell is she doing?
I know I've a long, hard journey ahead of me, but I'm ready.
It was all positive. Since the start of this process I've lost 98 pounds which is pretty good.
I got to talk to the surgeon and he's approved me for mini bypass surgery. It's still a serious operation, but not as long or complicated as the main bypass, but both usually have the same results, which tend to be an 80% excess weight drop. The downside is I'll have to take lifelong vitamins to make up for not absorbing them properly.
I asked if my lymphodemia would be an issue, and he said it wouldn't be operation wise, but they wouldn't have stockings to fit afterwards, as you're supposed to wear them for a while to prevent clots. So I suspect some self injecting clot drugs may be in my future. That or they somehow magic up some giant stockings.
The senior consultant was asked to come in as I'm still on the high side weight wise of people they'll operate on, and he had me lie on the bed and check my stomach, and said there shouldn't be an issue as I'm carrying a lot of my extra weight on my hips. Which Pauline agreed with when I was talking to her when I got home, she said she could see a noticeable difference in my face, shoulders and chest area, and then mam said I had a floppy belly when I was at hers. Which I guess is a sort of compliment.
I had bloods taken, told I had to ensure I didn't put any weight on while waiting, and was told I'd be on a special liver shrinking diet for a while before being admitted. Something I knew anyway as I've been lurking on wls forums for ages now.
So yeah. All good. I've thought so much about this. Wondered if I could keep on losing myself without surgical help, and maybe I could do for a while. But I know myself, one slip, one loosing of my willpower where I think it'll be okay if I have multiple takeaways, to tell myself that one Mcdonalds flurry won't make a difference. It's a slippery slope and I've plummeted down it plenty of times in the past.
Right now I feel healthier than I have in ages. I'm swimming, walking, socialising. I'm enjoying things like actually having a selection of clothes I can fit in, clothes I actually like. I don't want to end up confined to my bed or chair with knees that have given under the strain and unable to move.
I need to be here for Corey as he continues to grow. For James, because it's inevitable his disability will get worse in the future. But mostly for me. I want to buy clothes from any shop, not just the plus sized ones. I want to fly in an aeroplane, learn to drive. To sit in those stupid metal chairs with arms at the seafront cafe. Though I'm really close to that now. One day I'll post a picture of me doing victory arms while sitting on one of those things and people will think, what the hell is she doing?
I know I've a long, hard journey ahead of me, but I'm ready.
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Date: 2016-07-06 06:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-07-06 06:52 pm (UTC)I was a bit surprised to get the go-ahead today as every other appointment they've been pleased but wanted me to do something else first, like the pysch visits. Which I'm glad they did as they helped make things solid in my mind about doing this.
Though I have to admit I was pleased I'd lost since the balloon removal, because I'd been told it would be inevitable I'd put on.
And also, thank you yet again for your support. You're an amazing cheerleader.
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Date: 2016-07-06 08:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-07-06 10:47 pm (UTC)Yeah, it is such a two-edged sword that we *have* to eat, but need to regulate it. There's no stopping cold turkey. But I believe you can continue to do it, and achieve all those things.
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Date: 2016-07-07 01:30 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-07-07 05:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-07-07 08:31 am (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2016-07-07 05:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-07-07 07:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-07-08 11:02 am (UTC)I'm so glad to hear you're feeing good about yourself, and have excellent goals to work towards! ♥♥♥♥♥♥
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Date: 2016-07-08 12:26 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2016-07-09 01:20 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-07-09 03:42 pm (UTC)The medical team have been great. On the forum I lurk on a lot of people complain things don't happen fast enough, mainly because Sunderland is one of the biggest wls centres in the UK, so the waiting lists keep on swelling. But for me, it's been a good pace, with the times between appointments giving me time to think, take things in and ensure I'm doing what I need for myself.
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Date: 2016-07-09 05:46 pm (UTC)And I hope you're doing well, too.
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Date: 2016-07-09 05:48 pm (UTC)I am feeling good about myself and think all those goals are achievable. Though some may take longer than others. Like driving D:
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Date: 2016-07-10 07:01 pm (UTC)I have to be honest, thinking about learning to drive scares me, but I think it would be a very good thing.
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Date: 2016-07-11 02:54 pm (UTC)Your comment really is a lovely one to read, and I'll keep your words in mind when I inevitably go through hard times in the future.
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Date: 2016-07-11 02:55 pm (UTC)Two-edged sword is right. It doesn't help that so often socialising is based on going out to eat, too.
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