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[turps]

I don't know if anyone else does this but when I'm out of sorts all I want to do is have a good cry and just get it out of my system. That's what I was like today, so I hit the deathfic. I started with 'My Soul to Keep' for TS. That story breaks me for so many reasons. I was blubbering like a baby at the end. Then I read nsync deathfic and just bawled again. It may be a cracked thing to do but I feel a hell of a lot better now.

It's good to know deathfic has it's uses *g*

ETA: Forgot to say. My mood wasn't helped today by reading one of my mailing lists. Lately they had a huge thread about feedback and as a result I'm having to wade through multiple posts saying 'loved it' for stories. Now, feedback is good but if it's two words keep it off the list!

ETA2: They had to put Misty down, and I know I said that I didn't feel that bad and I don't in comparison to other things that could have happened. But she was still my bunny and just thinking of how she was looking at me last night and seeing the bag of food in the kitchen is setting me off. Guess I should have waited, I wouldn't have needed the deathfic.

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I'm glad I'm not the only one. I thought I was some kind of freak that went seeking deathfic for cathartic reasons. It's just easier to cry because of fic, then I feel better because the bad stuff is fiction and I can get over it easier.

Misty was old and in pain, it was for the best I know that. It's just like anything, it hurts until you accept that. I'll miss her but you have to do what's best for her, not me.