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I was talking to mam last night and she was saying how she's angry at Terry for dying. Which yeah, I understand, but as we talked further she admitted that she'd taken a load of loans out for him in her name. I was like, you idiot, because you just don't do things like that. She's got almost £100 per week in loans which he was paying, but obviously now he's dead she has to pay because she signed for them. She's been down here all morning and we've tried to sort her finances out, but man, she's in trouble just now. I feel bad because we're digging our way out of our money problems. The bank came through for us so we've paid off a load of debts, we were going to have a holiday with what was left over but I've given it to mam to pay at least some of her debts. She's not sleeping and I feel so sorry for her at the moment. Because as much as we have problems in our relationship she's still my mam and I love her to bits.

James is going to the funeral of his family friend this afternoon and I've cried off. I should go but I don't want to, which yeah is selfish but she was someone I only talked to very occasionally. I'm going to stay home and write and drink coffee and if that's selfish so be it.

Also, I'm turning into a freaking lizard. And this is gross I'm warning you. Remember the infection from hell I've been trying to shake off, and how my leg came out in blisters? Well those blisters have now scaled over, I have a patch of nasty dry scaly skin all down the outside of my thigh. Which wouldn't be bad but I'm a picker and I keep wanting to pick at the dry bits. Only 3 more doses of the antibiotics btw, I'm going to celebrate with a vodka, just because I can.



I'm writing like crazy at the moment, which is so cool. I love when I hit these patches when the words won't stop flowing. I'm alternating between the popslash AU and my The Sentinel story and dug out my MX femmeslash this morning, because I'm getting poked to write it *g* I'm having huge small amounts of anxiety about letting people down with the AU because writing without a beta is bloody scary, but scary in a good way. It's like it's my LJ and it will be betaed before it's announced so I'm enjoying writing it. I'm going to be opening Word as soon as I've had dinner, let Lance tell his story.

And I end with a meme, which I've seen on loads of LJ's the last one being weredonut's.

1. Does my username suit me?
2. Is my journal's title cryptic or descriptive? What do you think it means? (Not my username, but my journal's title.)
3. Does my journal expand your knowledge of me?
4. Do you think my bio describes me well? If there were no names given would you be able to guess who it was describing?
5. Which of my interests surprises you the least?
6. Which of my interests surprises you the most?
7. Which of my interests needs explaining?
8. How many of my friends' journals do you read on a regular basis?
9. How many of my friends are strangers to you?
10. Which of my userpics suits me best?

But I lie, I don't end at all ;)

Welcome _bettina_ and madame_d. Feel free to comment, chatter on or just lurk. I don't bite unless asked but I do ramble on about nothing important ;) Hmmmm, biting. To end this post on a great note *eg*