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[turps]

Finally managed to post my story to SFX, god please someone tell me it gets easier to post, because I feel sick to my stomach right now. This story has been my baby for months and now it's out in the big bad world and I'm scared to death.

Why the hell did I think I could write?

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[heuradys.livejournal.com]

Well, speaking as someone who *doesn't* post to 852 Prospect *ever*... I don't think it ever does get easier to post.

You're essentially dropping your story in the laps of a very large number of people, where it will sink or swim.
I had a discussion with Bast about the difficulty of posting a couple weeks ago: here (http://www.livejournal.com/talkread.bml?journal=ckr&itemid=44717)

So, no, you're not alone. *g*

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Just read that thread with Bast, and I so agree with all you say. Saying that thought, I've had nothing but good experiances so far posting my stories.

I suspect I've been lucky, I've only been in the fandom a year, and writing at all for less than that. The first slash story that I posted was a kink, and when I hit the send button I was no good. I was literally on e-mail to my beta all night, shaking as it sunk in I'd posted the story. I was expecting flames, yet somehow managed to slip under the notice of the flamers, and only recieved positive feedback.

There's some mailing lists that terrify me, I watched last week as one of my online friends stories was savaged, I have nightmares about being included in a DNR list or in a 'last week post'

I know I should just shrug things like that off, but right now I doubt I could. I'm still too insecure about my work to do that.

Will I keep posting to 852? At the moment yes, but god forbid that I ever write a deathfic, or stray from the OTP, I guess it's then the claws might come out.

[heuradys.livejournal.com]

I have never actually been flamed for a story. I tend to get more comments along the lines of: "I'm sure it's good, but I just can't read it." or "Your story upset my nervous condition that makes me pick the skin off my hands." or "You gave me nightmares."

Now, none of those are negative, per se, but...

The majority of my wee dribblings of feedback are good. The majority of *all* feedback, I think, is good - unless what you write is pure and simple dreck, and even in that case there will be someone to express how much they LOVE it (or at least those folks who are too polite to not positively LOC *anything*).

I'm on plenty of DNR lists, I'm sure. (You know my pairings sure aren't OTP!) *That* isn't the end of the world. *g* I have a couple close friends who are on my DNR - and they understand that it's nothing against them personally; our tastes are wildly divergent.

[turps33.livejournal.com]

Moving the thread a little, that's something I just don't understand about feedback, the people that will say everything's good. That's so wrong, there's some rubbish out there. Now I'd never mail someone and tell the writer that, but on the other hand I wouldn't tell them it was good either. Why some people LOC *everything* good or bad is a mystery to me.

While on the subject of things I don't understand (I'm in a pissy mood can you tell) why is there such opposition to something other than the OTP in TS? Ok, I personally love J&B together, but I've also read B/O J/O J/S/B B/R etc and that's fine too. In fact one of my buttons is reading the guys with a boyfriend, maybe because it shows that they just suddenly don't become gay for each other. ( but that's a rant for another day I think)

Does any other fandom stick so closely to the OTP, I've only really been in XF and Voyager, and there doesn't seem to be so much resistance to other pairings there. I dabble in SG and that seems to be pretty much OTP locked also but not as much as TS.

I guess what I'm getting at is, if you're a fan of say Blair, is it really that bad if he has sex with Rafe instead of Jim? I've a feeling the answer for most people would be yes.

[heuradys.livejournal.com]

Why some people LOC *everything* good or bad is a mystery to me.

I've asked someone who does LOC everything... and she's just so genuinely *nice* that she'll find something positive to say about the worst steaming cesspit of a story... just to encourage folks. I've never seen her post something like, "Oh hey, great punctuation!", but I do frequently see things like, "Oh, that was sweet." from her - and frankly, since she does LOC everything, I've begun to discount her comments on my own stuff. I love her to bits, but her fear of pissing someone off by either commenting negatively, constructively, or not at all is a bit... irksome.

why is there such opposition to something other than the OTP in TS?

Oooh, big one there. Frankly, I don't know, but I suspect, from my personal experience and digging on the subject, that it's because of "the chemistry between GM & RB" and "the built-in nature of the partnership pairing". I think it's probably safe to say that the majority of Buddy Shows - Starsky & Hutch comes to mind as an example - have OTP, resistance is futile reactionaries.

dueSouth sorta has it, but with a twist... You get to pick a Ray. *wink* And the same with SG1 - there's three main character males, so you can have *some* switching, but Jack and Danny are (or were) the single guys - and the only real holdovers from the movie.

I guess what I'm getting at is, if you're a fan of say Blair, is it really that bad if he has sex with Rafe instead of Jim? I've a feeling the answer for most people would be yes.

I do believe that for most people, yes, it is that scary answer. They'll tell you it's the Sentinel/Guide bond *rolls eyes* or what have you...

I'm obviously not the person to really be asking *g* since I tend to recruit people to write me Rafe/Blair or threesomes... and when I'm really lucky, I get people saying, "I hate Rafe, but I love *your* Rafe." and melting all over my stories. *g*